Maths. It really kills.

The title says it all.

I feel like giving up.
I feel like just tearing the paper tomorrow.
I feel like locking myself in the room.

Stupid self- generated noises.

Please forgive me for my language. I am on the verge of breaking down and just break away from everything. Nothing seem to go right anymore. Nobody seem to understand me.

Everything is one big trial and trials are tiring.

Just yesterday after Ms Fud had her go of tongue lashing to the Art class, I just broke down.
Like snap. I just couldnt hold on to whatever that had been weighing on down my back any longer.

Since last Wednesday I had been carrying it with me. Worries, questions, persecutions, lack of sleep, school, stress. Art's already behind time too.

I couldnt figure out what was wrong at first, till I spoke to Grace and messaged Jaslyn who urged me to read the bible. And I did.

Flipping to 2 Corinthians 6, the second verse caught my eye.

"In the time of my favor I heard you,
and in the day of salvation I helped you."

I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation.
2 Corinthians 6:2

It was quite a source of comfort, because my burdens were lifted immediately.

& today, I just had to fall into another self- deprived depression. Due to Maths.
As I blog about this, what Pastor How preached about last, last Sunday is being played in my mind: Take leadership of your emotions! Never allow your surroundings to wallow you up.

Rejoice in the Lord.
Rejoice in the Lord.
Rejoice in the Lord.

Just a few moments ago while I was still sinking in that depression, I was wondering, "How do I rejoice in Him?"

I found my answer, it is easy.

JUST STOP thinking about whatever is wrong! (:
JUST LOOK POSITIVE!

God just dropped me another message through the bible earlier after I seek Him.

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
2 Corinthians 4:17

Yay! What a wonderful message from God. (:
Whatever I am going through is for a good Cause.

I AM going to do well in Maths!
I AM going to lead my friends and cousins into salvation.
I AM going to continue to filter out bad thoughts.
I AM going to make a choice to remain joyful no matter what.

Its time to really step out from the comfort zone.
Its time to remove:

1. Impossible
2. Cannot
3. Difficult

from my mind.

Its time to implant:

1. Why not?
2. What if?
   

in there.

I can overcome my problems!
Creativity & problem solving begins to unfold when you refuse to accept no as an answer! All things ARE POSSIBLE!

As long as I...
Take a step a little further.
Do things a little longer.
Do things a little more.

Its possible.

I love blogging when I'm depressed. Because I get to become happy joyful again. Thank God for the creation of blogs. (:

Smile Daphne! I'm gonna sleep now.
Got to refresh myself to face my challenges ahead!

p.s: If you ever feel you're on the verge of breaking down. Seek God! Maybe He would reveal even more of 2 Corinthians to you! : D