My piorities went haywired since yesterday.

Even though I'm happy that I got a 21/80 for my maths which is sort of like 2 times of my previous 15/80. I'm worried for my paper yesterday. How many marks would I get this time round? I always dread every Wednesday. And its like, we're getting THIS particular paper back tomorrow.

And Grace passed the paper. (53/80) One of the two passes of the class. While I'm happy for her, on the other hand. I am already beginning to doubt my own ability to get the 13 points I aim to get. Look at my results now. Is 13 points on my O level certificate even possible?

So I didn't handle the whole situation all too well. I withdrew from God unknowingly and started walking down the down spirial of self-destruction. I begun doubting my own abilities and even begun doubting God. I ended up showing a black face to HanRong in the school library today. But I made it up later on when I was leaving for Physics. Grace sensed something wrong because she asked if I was mad at her.

However, I didn't know. Yes, I was a little mad at her for getting good grades. And I was worried for myself that all the thoughts started accumulating into a whole snow ball of sins.

I did not sit with Grace during physics because I did not want to hurt her. Lest that I said something wrong on the impulse. During physics my imagination ran wild, wild, wild. Like mean things that I would say to Grace. I did not have any intentions to let her know about me crying badly about my pathetic maths results yesterday.

But I made a decision and went over with an attempt to scare her but it did not work. Then I poured my soul to her, letting her know about my feelings since yesterday. She was very nice, she listened and pointed out things that I did not see. I thought that my relationship with God for the week had been okay. But it turned out that I had unknowingly, unknowingly been 'serving two masters'. Yes, my O levels.

She then gave me quite a lot of advices to encourage myself in the Lord. She then told me about David and a whole lot of things and we ended up boring MeiHui during lunch. (Sorry.)

Oh wells, from NOW I am going to set my piorities right again. Whatever's past, past. And tomorrow is going to be brighter!

Going to study nowwwww. Byebye!

Grace is guiding me to Kallang MRT to meet Jaslyn and the rest of E4 tomorrow for Festival of Praise! Thank you God for such a wonderful, wonderful friend! I love her very, very much! Bless her!